I’ve been trying to figure out in my head certain things about Stonewall. I am comfortable with the fact that I’m still unsure of what exists beyond the Walls… or if anything indeed exists… I’ve decided that the Walls themselves exist though, so that’s progress. 😛
I also know why the Walls exist and who put them there. Yes, someone ‘built’ the impenetrable mountain chain around Stonewall. The problem is less in what I know or not… Or what I’ve decided or not… The problem is what I know and find myself unable to define.
As in I try to write out exactly what it is and some logical sense of its existence and all I manage to get out is insanity. Insanity in the levels of something that could be easily found scribbled in blood on the walls of a horror movie psych ward. It’s like something that could make sense but you don’t know how to simulate the level of madness necessary to decode it.
And that’s what it looks like to me. Need I mention that I’m the one who wrote the stuff to begin with? And how is it that I can’t understand where the hell it’s coming from or what it’s even supposed to mean?
When I can’t even understand my rambles it’s time to slow the fuck down.