Conquering Phobias

Holy shit a ghost!

You guys know where I’ve been, I don’t need to explain how writing has taken over my life again. The past couple of weeks were rough for other reasons as well, but nothing important.

Other than Shadows Rise I actually managed to get a little RP going with two other people and, not only has it been incredibly fun… I’ve… Learned some things. 😐

Let me explain. One of the characters I’ve been playing loves arachnids; mainly scorpions. She has two pet Emperor Scorpions, but… She also has a pet tarantula. Particularly a Mexican Red Knee Tarantula, which is a huge motherfucking spider. And, as you may or not know, I’m terrified of spiders.

Now, you might be wondering why I would do this to myself? Welp, when I created the two characters I’m using for this roleplay, I used them for little band RPs back in Roleplay Gateway and I liked to throw random shit into those to see what sticks. Jo, the character in question, was your stereotypical bad girl and I decided to give her a scorpion tattoo. Since I like things like tattoos to have a reason for being, I decided that she really likes scorpions and from that, I was like “She probably likes spiders too.” Here we are many, many years later. I’m a far more experienced roleplayer and I’m looking at this character and realizing: I don’t know how pet tarantulas work. And hm… Do I want to subject myself or just half-ass it? If you know me, you know the answer.

Off  I went into the depths of Google and YouTube, hoping to learn about caring for your creepy crawly friends. And let me tell you, I was cursing myself for making a character who loves something I’m so terrified of, but… You know what I discovered?

Tarantulas are fascinating creatures.

I ended binging several different channels, watching people who care for whole collections of them talk about their spiders and, I’m not gonna lie; I love them a little bit now. I’m still terrified of them and I would never in a million years want to handle one. But I’ve gained some perspective on why people keep them and I’m definitely a lot more comfortable putting myself in the mindset of someone who owns, handles, and genuinely loves a giant hairy spider. Tarantulas are mostly giant, chill, derps who are more than happy to have a small enclosure with a nice burrow, some water, and a cricket now and then. And heck, they can be fucking cute!

I even actually subscribed to one of the channels I used for my research and, as a fellow arachnophobe, if you have issues with spiders and think you can tolerate some imagery, I’m gonna embed a video for you now and I suggest checking out this channel. Because I actually found it pretty entertaining and informative.

If you can’t handle the imagery, I apologize for the thumbnail. I wasn’t gonna embed any videos or photos, but considering the experience I’ve had of this whole venture, I felt it necessary.

I don’t know when I’ll be back. Carnaval happened and messed up my sleep and my writing schedule. I’m trying to get back into the swing of things. Again. But hopefully, once I’m done with this episode of Shadows Rise I can come back on a more permanent basis.



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