The Last of Us 2 Broke Me

Plotstains made me watch a The Last of Us 2 let’s play. He needed me to watch it because he wanted to talk about it. And I don’t know how exactly I’m going to write this post. I really don’t, lol. I just know that I need to write it, because I can’t stop thinking about this stupid game. >.>

I’m not gonna lie, I wasn’t enthusiastic about TLoU2 even though I loved the first one. I loved the first one, but… I hated Joel after the ending. And I don’t say that to the detriment of Joel as a character. I think… My sympathy throughout The Last of Us was consistently with Ellie from the start. And I saw the ending of that game as not only a horrific act but a betrayal. I was angry on Ellie’s behalf, I guess you could say. As for where I stand with Joel now… I’m gonna come back around to that later on because I think my feelings towards Joel actually illustrate my biggest issue with the storytelling in this game series as a whole.

Before that, though, I wanna talk about TLoU2 and how I felt watching the game. It was a roller coaster ride. Take that as you will but seeing as, like Abby, I’m terrified of heights; I’ve been on a roller coaster exactly one time during which I proceeded to cry the entire time and later on puke… This may not be as accurate of an analogy for you as it is for me. 😛

I know this game is divisive and a lot of people hate it for a multitude of reasons. I don’t. There’s a lot about this game that I love. Actually, I’d go as far as to say I love every single individual part of this game, but I absolutely hate the sum of those parts.

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Why I (Really) Hate Twilight (For Real)

Okay, I’m still learning to navigate this stupid editor and this is gonna be a somewhat long and more-seriou-than-usual post, so bear with me, but I’m gonna do my best because I think this is interesting and worth talking about.

I recently started watching Dominic Noble on YouTube. I don’t know how I got into the book review videos recently. I didn’t used to like it very much, but now I’ve been following a few such channels, his included. And when he recently announced he’s covering the Twilight books (RIP, Dom) he mentioned a section of Lindsay Ellis’ video on the subject. This video, if you want the full context. I’m not a fan of Lindsay’s style personally, it’s a little too serious for me, lol, but she makes good points and I’m definitely not making this post to dispute anything she has to say here. I do think she’s right about most of it, if not all. So, watch it if you want the full scope, but I’ll give the gist of it as I make my arguments.

I want to start off by mentioning where I think Lindsay is right in this video: I do think both Twilight and Stephenie Meyer received an insane amount of undeserved hatred. And yeah, I know, I’ve mocked Stephenie Meyer myself in my reviews a lot. Including in my argument that Bella is a self-insert, but a) I’ve been over the fact I exaggerate my anger in reviews a lot and b) I try to the best of my ability to only attack her writing, never her character.

I have a lot of respect for Stephenie Meyer; and I’ve also said this multiple times before. Not because I think her books are good, but because I feel her books are, good or bad, hers. They are what she wanted them to be and she wholeheartedly believed in them. As a creative person, as a writer, I can’t bring myself to criticize an author for following their vision just because their vision isn’t something that appeals to me. I can criticize how that vision was put into practice in the context of a review; and believe-you-me, I will… But I can’t criticize an author for following that vision.

But that’s not the argument that made me want to write this post. It was the argument that… And I’m gonna look this up in the video so I can quote it exactly as Lindsay puts it, just for those of you who don’t want to watch the video:

We, and by we I mean our culture, we kinda hate teenage girls. We hate their music, we hate their insipid backstabbing, we hate their vanity, we hate their selfie sticks, we hate their makeup, we hate their books and the stupid sexy actors they made famous and their stupid sparkly vampires. And then we wonder why so many girls are eager to distance themselves from being the object of societal contempt. (…) It wasn’t just that Twilight was popular, it was who it was popular with. Teenage girls and the mothers of teenage girls.

Lindsay Ellis – Dear Stephenie Meyer

Before I go into why I don’t fully agree with this statement, let me start by saying that… I also believe this statement to be absolutely true.  There is a lot of stigma in liking things like Twilight, YA, romance in general, swooning over fictional characters, and having nonsensical supernatural-based fantasies. I mean, I’m not saying the type of fantasy being sold by books like Twilight isn’t shallow and stupid, but… So are action movies. They’re shallow, stupid, and a tough-guy wish fulfillment fantasy. So why is it a problem to genuinely like Twilight or Nicholas Sparks books (more on him another day, maybe), but it’s super cool to like Die Hard? Because male fantasies are okay, and female fantasies generally aren’t. That’s a societal fact, it just is. And I very much agree that it’s a double standard that needs to go away.

So where do I fit into all this? Well, I was 16 when Twilight came out, around 17/18 at the height of its popularity here in Brazil when the movies became a thing and, honestly, when I first picked up a copy at a bookstore to browse I didn’t do it because I wanted to laugh at it. I did it because I wanted to like it. I never went into Twilight with the intention of hating it. And for the longest time I didn’t. I just didn’t care about it. But there’s a problem with that, see, because I was also, dun dun dun… A TEENAGE GIRL!

I recently wrote a post on Written In Shadows about writing relationships when you don’t like romance (I’m lowkey proud of it, so check it out). In it, I briefly touched on why romance doesn’t appeal to me as a genre, and a lot of my criticism of Twilight revolves around the romance tropes I hate. Which is why I opened the review series by warning that if you have any strong feelings for these books, my take on it isn’t going to be for you.

I was a demisexual teenager (even though I wasn’t aware of the terminology at the time) and being demi as a teen girl right at the height of this book’s popularity was a living hell to me. Being someone who grew up uninterested in the romantic genre as a whole around the height of internet virtue signaling (aka 2015/2016) means that I had the term “internalized misogyny” thrown at me too many times to fucking count. Because being someone equipped with a vagina who doesn’t want to read about characters whose lives revolve around a romantic relationship means I hate my own gender, anything in between, and am only interested in catering to male power fantasies. Because of course I like Die Hard, that movie is just the shit. I’m not exaggerating, these were things I was told around that time based on my criticism of Twilight and Fifty Shades. Thankfully people seem more chill about it now.

And again, I’m not saying that type of misogyny doesn’t exist. There are too many ‘not like other girls’ posts online that are 100% legit and yes, some girls, and some grown ass women even, try their hardest to distance themselves from the societal stigma of being ‘those girls’, but in the midst of combating said stigma, someone like me can get accused of perpetuating it by simply… Being. I’ve never mentioned ‘other girls’ in talking about things I like or dislike. I only ever mentioned me, but by expressing those opinions in the past I’ve also had those implications projected onto me. If I think Twilight is shallow and stupid, then I must have the same opinion towards people who like Twilight too, right? No. Okay? I love Friendship is Magic and My Immortal. I stood in line at a bookstore, straight faced, holding a copy of Fifty Shades of Grey because my mom wanted to read it. If you think I’m over here sitting on some high horse… Hi, you must be new here, welcome to my blog. This is a judgment free zone.

No. I understand why it appeals to people and I understand that it’s shallow and stupid by design. The things you like aren’t an extension of you, don’t internalize anyone’s criticism of a fifteen-year-old book and feel bad about yourself. It’s okay. I’m personally telling you: it’s okay.

So, back to this stupid ass book, lol. As a teenager my hate for Twilight didn’t come from hating teenage girls, it came from hating the teenage girl society wanted me to be. From being called out even by my friends for ‘only liking guy stuff’. Which I did… Because everything and anything marketed at my own demographic revolved around something I couldn’t bring myself to feel interested in. From once or twice being told I was ‘acting superior’ for wanting to say the stuff I liked was better. Because I genuinely felt it was better and I wanted to feel allowed to like it and talk about it.

Now, I mentioned the fact I’m doing the Twilight reviews because a friend called me on my bluff that I’d only review it if someone bought me the books. And even though she has said I don’t have to keep doing it, I still want to. I’ll do it at my own pace and I may not be able to cover the whole series at this pace, but I do want to look back on Twilight.

I want to talk about why Bella Swan never resonated with me, and why even though I agree with Stephenie Meyer’s sentiments that fictional characters should be role models, I think hers are absolutely terrible down to their core. But I also have to thank her, because her books are the embodiment of everything I didn’t want as a reader. And their popularity, this undying trend they set off, drove me to write characters I wanted to read. That I wish I could have seen at that age. It pushed me to start my own roleplay to get away from all the high-school vampire crap being played on Roleplay Gateway at the time. Hell, I might even go as far as to say that if it wasn’t for Twilight, there would be no Valcrest.

If you read Arc 2 of Shadows Rise you’ll see that it revolves mainly around a female cast and has a particular spotlight on a teenage girl. A girl about to turn sixteen who’s being trained to become an assassin, who has a world of responsibility weighing down on her shoulders, but she is at her core still a teenager with a childish side, with maybe a little too much compassion considering her future line of work, who wants to spend her time exploring the woods and playing with her younger sister, and feels like those freedoms are being stripped away as she grows up. Who doesn’t feel like doing her best could possibly ever measure up to expectations. Who has trouble communicating her feelings to her mom so bottles them up and says that she’s fine.

And while I don’t write my characters to be role models in any capacity, I do write them to feel as human as possible. To be as relatable as possible. I want to write a sixteen year old girl who any sixteen year old can relate to in some way, even if not completely, regardless of whether they’re interested in romance or not. Maybe the more romance-oriented teenage girl will want to yell at Dani for ignoring the cute boy flirting with her in that one chapter, or saying no when she’s being asked to dance at the party at another, but I hope they’ll still relate to her in other ways. Because, here’s my take on character relatability… No one is just  one thing. I don’t treat my characters as though they are and I don’t expect my readers to be either. That’s how I wish popular culture had treated me as a kid. I wanted to like Twilight, but Bela Swan wasn’t anything other than a generic teen girl, Twilight was designed to appeal to a general audience and let kids like me slip through the cracks. Do I blame Stephenie Meyer for this? No. She did what she wanted to do with her book, it became wildly popular, and the industry did what it always does. The rest is history.

So that’s my latest Twilight rant. Hope you guys found it interesting. If you haven’t yet, check out Lindsay’s video, I really did like it a lot. And I promise I’ll review chapter 3 as soon as I have the free time to read and make notes.

Later, Guys.

B.B

The Heart of The Forest 2.11

Hey, guys! I’m a little swamped with work right now. So while I don’t get cracking on another review, maybe consider giving Shadows Rise a go. The latest chapter just came out this Sunday. And if you haven’t been keeping up, you can start from chapter 1.01 by clicking here!

Later, Guys!

B.B

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[Wolves Camp | Inviditas 11th, 2525 |Early Morning]

Lena woke up to Eldric’s snores ringing in her ears. She opened her eyes to a still-dark room and maneuvered her way out from under his arm. When she’d finally called it a night, he was already sleeping; passed out in his clothes and sprawled across her bed as if he belonged there. The past month had been an exercise in patience when it came to accommodating Eldric. He snored loudly, hogged the blankets, and proved himself quite disruptive of her daily routine in general. Not yelling at him for trying to ‘organize’ her books to pass the time one rainy afternoon demanded a level of restraint she didn’t know she possessed; yet despite all the aggravations involved with sharing her private space, she’d gotten used to it faster than she thought.

A small shiver coursed…

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I Think I Need To Talk About J.K Rowling

I don’t want to. Not really. But considering that the majority of people come into this blog for my HP fan fiction commentary, I feel that I actually need to make my stance clear on this.

It’s not a secret to anyone who knows me that Harry Potter is a book I mention in my list of ‘books that inspired me to become a writer’. Now, I was just a kid when I read that series. I grew up with it and, unfortunately, nothing can erase that nostalgic feeling. It’s a part of me and I have to accept that. I’m not gonna stop covering Harry Potter fan fiction, I’m not gonna suddenly hate that story because, I just can’t. It’s a part of my childhood. And while it wasn’t the book that inspired me to actually write, or the book that drew me into fantasy as a genre, it was the book that made me fall in love with books. And like it or not, I owe that part of myself to J.K Rowling.

Now, I’m not the kind of person who idolizes people. I don’t ‘stan’ anyone. I think that you shouldn’t ever believe that because an artist’s work speaks to you that you know who they are as a person. All the love and admiration I felt and still, in some ways, feel for the Harry Potter series, never extended to J.K Rowling. I never looked up to her as someone I aspired to be either as a person or a writer. I don’t count her as one of my literary influences. The one time I praised her was after watching Fantastic Beasts and after just watching the trailer for the second movie I knew that whatever potential that movieverse had was dead on arrival. So not like that praise held up for long anyway.

The point of the above paragraphs is to say that, despite owing a part of my childhood and my love for storytelling to her works, I have no problem saying that J.K Rowling should just fuck off.

And before I give any sort of take on her actual opinions, let me say that watching someone who has everything you dreamed of accomplishing in life prove so thoroughly that they don’t deserve the audience, the platform, the adoration, and the money that they have, is sickening and gut-wrenching. I know so many wonderful writers out there who make pennies off their self-published books, go unrecognized, and have more integrity in their little fingers than J.K Rowling could ever have. It’s incredibly sad that the person who’s books were a staple of my childhood is such a terrible example for children and should not be tweeting the crap she’s tweeting in between posts showing off her very young audience’s fan art. J.K Rowling goes against everything I stand for as a human being and a literary artist.

I joked on Twitter about my ‘bitch get off my lawn’ reaction to learning she’s releasing a web novel, but I am wholeheartedly ashamed to even remotely share a publishing platform with her. I was gonna do this funny thing and go through a few chapters of her latest work to commentate on it, but no. Fuck that. I’m gonna give that space to a web fiction author that genuinely deserves it.

I was gonna do a chapter by chapter of The Cursed Child,  but I don’t know if I still want to after this. She technically didn’t write it, but…. Hmph.

I’m gonna continue to cover fan fiction if I find HP fan fiction worthy of my ‘wrath’ in the future just because fan fiction writers don’t have any fault in her bullshit. It’s their creativity for better or for worse, one thing shouldn’t influence the other.

Now for my take on what she’s actually been saying… I’m gonna admit I’m not the most educated person when it comes to definitions like ‘gender’ and ‘sex’ and what is considered biological sex in a strictly scientific nature anymore. I thought that when people said ‘there’s only two sexes’ they’re talking about sexual organs and what does what in terms of reproduction. And even then… That’s not strictly the case? Because there are people that are born as both or partially one and partially the other… And I still don’t know where that comes into play in terms of what gender is. Science and scientific determinations adapt and change constantly. It’s perfectly normal for something you learned in school to not be the case anymore when you’re freaking 30, and it’s not a hill I’m gonna stand on and die in any case, even less this one.

So I’m not gonna go over her points and refute them like I know what I’m actually talking about. I’ve never had the experience. And I don’t know anyone who has closely enough that my anxiety will allow me to ask these sort of questions. Maybe they wouldn’t see it that way, but it feels to me like intimate questions to ask someone about. I dunno. Anyone who reads this and wants to give me a lecture, feel free. I did read up on it (before anyone gives me the standard ‘do your research’ response), but I still feel pretty confused a lot of the time.

Here’s what I do know. I do know when someone’s being a piece of shit to people. I definitely know when someone is saying and doing things that are absolutely going to be hurtful to young people who may look up to them because of their works being aimed at younger audiences. I can absolutely recognize someone who has their head so far up their own ass that they just wanna be right about their bullshit opinions never mind the actual human beings involved. There’s no ‘logic’ that excuses any of that shit. The only explanation is that you suck and you’re never gonna stop sucking because you think you’re in the right and everyone else is a moron.

But hey, J.K, if everyone’s telling you you’re fucking wrong; you’re fucking WRONG.

About time I get into Rick Riordan. Better late than never. In the meantime, guys, do me a solid and read some real web fiction from authors who aren’t a piece of shit. And I don’t mean just me. We have a list going on our Twitter:

I’m gonna work on writing reviews for the serials on this thread instead of whatever bs J.K is shitting out. People who are talented, nice, and support their fellow writers. They deserve an audience a thousand times more than her.

B.B

Death and Grief

Hey, guys. As the title suggests, I want to talk about two very prominent themes in Shadows Rise; death and grief. If you’ve been reading along and keeping up with SR, you’ll know some specifics. If you haven’t, I’m not giving away any spoilers by saying this. The premise itself gives those themes away. When you have a group of people seeking revenge on a clan of assassins… The death and grief part is very much implied.

I previously wrote a post listing all the stupid reasons I’ve killed characters in the past and if you’ve been following me long enough you might have been around for the April Fools where I faked a favorite character’s death in our RP just to mess with readers, but… The people reading at the time were personal friends; I knew them, and the other participants of the RP were aware of what I was doing. I mean, Wifey co-wrote that death post with me. It was an evil prank, but I’d always been the one who gets pranked on April Fools and that year I had something I could use for revenge. They forgave me eventually. >.>

With that damning behavior out in the open,  let me preface this by saying that killing off a character to, so to speak, take something away from my readers isn’t something I would normally do. And it’s not something I can condone. As a reader I hate plot armor with a fury. I genuinely think that if in the back of my mind I can tell myself “Pft, there’s no way they’ll kill the main character” every time the going gets rough in a story, and I know it’s true, it takes something away from the experience. On the other hand if I start feeling there’s no point getting attached to any characters because the author doesn’t think twice about dropping them like flies… Yeah, that’s a much bigger problem.

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Envy

This is a feeling I have a horrible time trying to understand. I always draw inspiration from people who are good at things I’m not. I admire them, I don’t resent them.

My own shortcomings aren’t anyone else’s fault. They didn’t build their success by stepping over me.

And it’s funny that, with how little I’ve actually accomplished, I somehow still get treated like a bragger sometimes. For saying things like “I’ve been making progress” or showing appreciation for the support I’ve received. I posted a thank you to some people on deviant art for New Year and in that post, I mentioned that some people have referred to me as talented and an inspiration at some points during the previous year. And despite having said that I don’t feel like that’s true; although I appreciated it, to some people that still comes off as bragging.

As confused as I am about the whole concept of envying someone in a negative way. It’s even more baffling when it’s directed at me. There are so many people out there who are actually successful and have accomplished things I can only hope to achieve in the future. I’m barely starting to be able to say I completed something. Whether or not it succeeds is a whole different story. What is there for anyone to be bitter about over here? I don’t get it!

I swear to God someone is going to think I’m bragging about my negative attention somehow. Because… Internet, I guess. -.-

B.B

Why You Should Put Yourself Out There

I posted a while back about how I’m a Terrible Writer. In that post, I was talking in a more technical sense. I’m not the best at grammar and I have a shit ton of things I need to work on as a writer. And I’m aware of that. That was basically the point of that post. I wasn’t putting myself down with it because understanding that you need to improve is a part of life. That was kind of the point I was trying to illustrate then.

As someone who has a bit of a history reviewing and commenting on what is basically amateur writing, though, I feel that I need to get one thing very clearly across. One deep-rooted belief of mine: your enjoyment dictates how good you are.

I read a lot of fan fiction, as you know. And fan fiction is great because… If you’ve read enough of it, you’ve seen it all. All types of skillsets, genres, points of view. Variety exists in fan fiction where, sadly, it doesn’t anywhere else in the writing world. And that’s because there is a lot less pressure to conform in the fan fiction community. At least, as an outsider, that’s how I perceive it. When you think ‘fan fiction’ you don’t think of a particular writing style. Certain tropes might come to mind, sure, you may immediately envision come self-insert OC that has no business in whatever fandom the fic refers to and fails miserably at just being a character, because… That does happen plenty, but if you’re a seasoned fic reader like I am, you’ll know there is much more beyond that.

As someone who’s seen a lot of what the fan fiction world has to offer, I can safely say that a lot of my favorite fics weren’t the best-written things ever. A lot of the time I actually have to put in some effort into reading a fic because the author’s English skills aren’t great or they don’t do paragraph breaks or, freaking, put a new line of dialogue in an actual new line and then I have to try and decipher who the heck is saying what.

But I do it. I do it because sometimes it is worth doing when you can tell the person is actually trying. I spent hours reading a Sonic fan comic the other day that had some of the worst English translation I’ve ever seen, but the plot was actually well thought out and the writer was so excited about putting up a new chapter. Their ANs always said something like “wow, next chapter is my favorite chapter. You don’t wanna miss it!” and I was like “Oh, well, if you think so…” *clicks next* >.>

And, you know, I was actually a little sad when it ended. It was a pretty good story at its core. There was genuine love put into it. And I don’t know about the rest of the world, but that speaks volumes to me. If someone writes a story for the love of it, trust me when I say, it shows. It counts for something. Even if I don’t like it, I can respect a genuine attempt; real effort. Because I can relate to it.

So here’s the question: should you put yourself out there or not?

First and foremost: Do you want to? Are you committed to your story? Do you need to write it? Do you need it to be read? If yes to all. Then absolutely.

Your writing isn’t perfect? Welp, you’re going to be met with criticism sometimes. It is going to put people off from finishing even your first paragraph. Yeah, you’re gonna get a lot of ‘textbook’ writing advice on all the little writing rules you need to follow to meet standards of ‘real writing’. Assuming a lot of people read it, that’s guaranteed to happen.

Support isn’t. Support isn’t guaranteed. It may never happen. People might not read, they might never say anything if they do read; even if they like it and keep coming back. And you might continuously wonder if whatever views you’re getting are because your writing is good or because some line you put in somewhere keeps showing up on Google searches a lot. These are things I wonder a lot about this blog. Because I’ve become so inconsistent with posting, but I keep getting views on my fan fiction posts daily. The other day I got an email saying that my stats were booming. If you’re all keeping track, it’s been a while since I last posted anything. So, again, it’s not guaranteed and what you get might not tell you much about whether you’re doing the right thing or not.

Still, the title of this post suggests that my advice is to go through with it… Why?

Because these are all possibilities. And the reality of the situation, for you, is that if you never do it you’ll simply never know. I… I’ve been surprised in the past year and am constantly surprised with the amount of interest and support I received considering how little of Shadows Rise I’ve actively shared with people who weren’t beta reading it. The previews I posted on my deviant art are outdated at this point, even, but… Just the fact I’m on a computer writing this right now is proof that there were people out there who cared enough to put money into keeping me going.

And, let me tell you, even if we do have things like Patreon in the works for this when it launches, that was never something I expected. Even when I posted asking for donations I wasn’t expecting it to do anything, because why would it? I haven’t put out anything yet. There’s no payoff to any of this other than the promise you’ll be able to read something eventually. Still, apparently, people do want to read it. And that in itself is a pretty amazing incentive.

Do I still get criticism? Yes. I do. Plenty of it. Some of it was hurtful only because I’m aware of my limitations and I know that reaching the next level of skill might take me a little while. Simply put: I know this is the best I can offer right now. So when someone says they don’t even want to finish a chapter because it doesn’t meet their standards, that stings. It stays with you. And, at the end of the day, it’s not for me to say that just the possibility of support is worth putting yourself through it. That’s for you to decide.

My personal experience has been that yes. Yes, it is worth it. My take away from all of this is that people can and will surprise you if you let them. And maybe one day, enough people will tell me I don’t suck that I just might start believing it too. >.>

B.B

 

Conquering Phobias

Holy shit a ghost!

You guys know where I’ve been, I don’t need to explain how writing has taken over my life again. The past couple of weeks were rough for other reasons as well, but nothing important.

Other than Shadows Rise I actually managed to get a little RP going with two other people and, not only has it been incredibly fun… I’ve… Learned some things. 😐

Let me explain. One of the characters I’ve been playing loves arachnids; mainly scorpions. She has two pet Emperor Scorpions, but… She also has a pet tarantula. Particularly a Mexican Red Knee Tarantula, which is a huge motherfucking spider. And, as you may or not know, I’m terrified of spiders.

Now, you might be wondering why I would do this to myself? Welp, when I created the two characters I’m using for this roleplay, I used them for little band RPs back in Roleplay Gateway and I liked to throw random shit into those to see what sticks. Jo, the character in question, was your stereotypical bad girl and I decided to give her a scorpion tattoo. Since I like things like tattoos to have a reason for being, I decided that she really likes scorpions and from that, I was like “She probably likes spiders too.” Here we are many, many years later. I’m a far more experienced roleplayer and I’m looking at this character and realizing: I don’t know how pet tarantulas work. And hm… Do I want to subject myself or just half-ass it? If you know me, you know the answer.

Off  I went into the depths of Google and YouTube, hoping to learn about caring for your creepy crawly friends. And let me tell you, I was cursing myself for making a character who loves something I’m so terrified of, but… You know what I discovered?

Tarantulas are fascinating creatures.

I ended binging several different channels, watching people who care for whole collections of them talk about their spiders and, I’m not gonna lie; I love them a little bit now. I’m still terrified of them and I would never in a million years want to handle one. But I’ve gained some perspective on why people keep them and I’m definitely a lot more comfortable putting myself in the mindset of someone who owns, handles, and genuinely loves a giant hairy spider. Tarantulas are mostly giant, chill, derps who are more than happy to have a small enclosure with a nice burrow, some water, and a cricket now and then. And heck, they can be fucking cute!

I even actually subscribed to one of the channels I used for my research and, as a fellow arachnophobe, if you have issues with spiders and think you can tolerate some imagery, I’m gonna embed a video for you now and I suggest checking out this channel. Because I actually found it pretty entertaining and informative.

If you can’t handle the imagery, I apologize for the thumbnail. I wasn’t gonna embed any videos or photos, but considering the experience I’ve had of this whole venture, I felt it necessary.

I don’t know when I’ll be back. Carnaval happened and messed up my sleep and my writing schedule. I’m trying to get back into the swing of things. Again. But hopefully, once I’m done with this episode of Shadows Rise I can come back on a more permanent basis.

B.B